Just wanted to say thank you to all of you that left me wonderful comments on my last few posts - and my last post especially.
Someone who doesn't blog and/or has never known people only online might not believe it but your words and the fact that you're willing to come read about my life and share thoughts/advice/experiences really help. A lot.
I get caught up a lot of the time in feeling alone. Like I might be the only one to have these negative feelings. But I'm not. They are common and I just need to learn how to deal with them. Hopefully talking to the therapist will help me learn to do just that.
I seriously did not even think about others also having such a hard time sharing feelings. I mean, I know that logically it makes sense that others feel that way, but it just never occurred to me. Reading your comments helped me to see that I'm not the only one.
One comment even made me realize that one of the reasons I feel so negatively about sharing is that I'm afraid of what the therapist will think of me. I really don't want people to think I'm "crazy", selfish, bitchy, etc. I suppose I need to get over that - and I'm considering bringing it up to her at the next appt.
All of you are so sweet and supportive and I just can't say enough that I appreciate each and every comment. They made me feel a lot better in general and better about continuing to go to therapy.
Thank you Thank you Thank you <3
I'm so happy you're feeling better and more at peace about continuing to go through therapy. You're definitely not alone in your thoughts - and we're all here to help you through this. Isn't the bloggy world amazing???
ReplyDeleteI didn't leave a comment but I would have told you similar things. Sometimes when you get all the nasty, ugly stuff off your chest, you start to feel lighter, better. And a therapist can give you perspective. The important thing to remember is that until you take action, you can never begin to change things for yourself.
ReplyDeleteYou are so sweet, Jill!
ReplyDeleteI swear all infertiles need counseling and medications. We are a depressed lot. So are people with PCOS, because we feel crappy.
ReplyDeleteYou are so worth it and I hope you find the peace you are seeking :)
I jsut caught up with some of your posts. I hope your appointment today goes well and you can open up a little easier. I would be afraid, too. It sounds scary to just tell someone about your feelings. I have trouble telling my husband my crazy feelings!!! You are doing great.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you are feeling less alone - that is soooooo wonderful!! Good work on bringing it up at your next appointment, looks like you are really making progress within yourself which is brilliant - well done you!!
ReplyDeleteSo glad that your feeling better and that so many people have left great comments to help.
ReplyDeleteIt is amazing how much these online relationships can come to mean. I never would have imagine that I could be so touched and supported and encouraged by people who I have never met.
ReplyDeleteIn regards to your last post, it is totally weird to sit in a room and talk with some stranger about youself. I totally agree! But at the same time, I absolutely think that my therapist is a godsend in helping me reframe and refocus my thoughts on productive things. I try not to think about the weirdness of it all. ANd, for me, medication has been a god-send as well. I really don't think that I would be able to hold it together and stay employed without medication. Infertility is a really hard, painful, sorrowful journey. It is hard. and I don't think that we should be expected to deal with it alone. Feel free to email me offline anytime if you want more info about my experience. These are very personal decisions, but I am honestly shocked that everyone on this journey is not a blithering idiot, on medication, and in therapy!!!
Warmest wishes - Foxy