I dreamt I was pregnant. That's obviously not a rare dream topic.
I dreamt I was pregnant with quadruplets.
I was excited, and scared, and crying, and worried.
I wanted all four with all my heart, yet I didn't want to jeopardize all of them by trying to bring all of them into the world.
I was scared to tell my husband, but when I told him he was surprisingly less freaked than I thought he'd be.
This dream will never be finished, it will never have an ending.
It was a powerful dream.
I'm still thinking about it now.
I've, once again, let hope creep way too far into my brain and heart for my own good. So far in that I know that if this is it, I'd be due at the beginning of Dec. I had some twinges and cramping yesterday morning on the way in to work. I very rarely have cramps, not even during AF.
Yet, at the same time, I know that this is not IT. And I know I'll be sad when that nasty glimmer of hope is crushed once again.
Disclaimer: This is not meant to be a tease that I might be pregnant. I know I'm not. But Hope doesn't give a shit what I know.
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